::PET PEEVES::

LEAST FAVORITE FOOD
Mexican. I know I live in the wrong part of North America to not like Mexican food, but damn -- do they need to put cilantro on EVERYTHING?! Blecch! Bell peppers are gross...Oh...and PHO.

THINGS I NEED TO WORK ON
IMPATIENCE. I cannot sit still, most especially if there is something to do, like put my receipts in chronological order. I need to learn how to relax. CONTROL FREAK: People let me down all the time, so I do not like to depend on other people; I tend to try and do everything myself. My plate gets too full that I sometimes end up with hives. I need to learn how to trust in other people enough to let them help me. SMOKING: Hey, man. I thought that shit was supposed to suppress my appettite?! What a rip off. If I am going to have lung cancer, at least let me be skinny.

RELIGIOUS FANATICS
I get a lot of religious fanatics who write to me (ahem...what are you doing perusing an adult site?) and try to "help me see the light". You also would be surprised as to the number of YOUR religous leaders have called on me and others in my profession. You would be sick; I am not devout, but it makes my stomach churn. I do not need to be saved from myself. I am doing what I can to take care of myself and my family and there is not a darn thing they can say to make me quit because they find my work offensive. I think sexual intercourse, and the desire to have it, is absolutely natural. I put it right up there with breathing, eating, and drinking. Some religious practices help people from going overboard with natural tendencies, but trying to stifle it makes some go mad or go through great lengths of trying to hide it. God gave you free will and you can use this gift to NOT LOOK AT ME. Last I heard, this was still America, which was founded on religious freedoms. Everyone should be allowed to practice and rejoice to whatever brings peace to their soul. Have you ever tried to feed pigeons in a park? You don't run at them, screaming, "Come here, you hungry pigeons!! Hey! I am going to feed you!" I am not saying this is me, but there might be someone in real need of guidance who you just scared away. Drop little crumbs here and there. Those who are seeking the Bread will flock to you.

PUBLIC RESTROOMS
Freaking attendants: Looming over me, forcing me to take their damn soap and paper towels, that I am capable of getting myself and then expecting a tip. Yeah, if I take gum, I'll leave a tip, but dayam! No wait, I'll pay if they will lick my ass clean.
Automatic Flushing Toilets: If I drop a $10 bill out of my pocket while going pee, I would like the opportunity to decide for myself if I want to pull out a chopstick from my bag and fish it out and throw it in HOT water with like Oxyclean or something later.
Toilet Seats: I put the wax toilet sheet down(as if that protects you from anything), but I never sit. It is good for my line of work to work my quads anyway.
Restroom Floors : I roll/fold up my pant legs so it doesn't hit the floor when I unzip my pants. I have held my purse in my teeth if there is nowhere to hang it. The image of muddy water bucket and a janitor with a dirty mop smearing around fecal residue until it is so thin it cannot be seen is forever burned in my skull. <gag>

DELUSIONAL NUDE MODELS
Many models believe that just because the camera does not pan down and show that 2% of skin between their legs, they do not do porn. While some of these same girls have as many or more sex partners that I ever had on film judge me, I have had exactly 10 sexual partners outside the business, including one-night stands. I am not a slut, I am an adult video performer. I believe that there is a market value for sex. The whole glass house, stone throwing thing pisses me off.

por•nog•ra•phy /pôr-nðg'ru-fee/
1 : the depiction of erotic behavior (as in pictures or writing) intended to cause sexual excitement
2 : material (as books or a photograph) that depicts erotic behavior and is intended to cause sexual excitement
3 : the depiction of acts in a sensational manner so as to arouse a quick intense emotional reaction ...............................-Meriam-Webster Dictionary

Hey, man. I have tons of girlfriends who don't do hardcore, but they do not look down on me because I do it. I hate these conceited, stuck up bitches who run around on set buck-naked, "Oh, you do PORN, I would NEVER do porn. You're sick!" Everyone has their own threshold. For those girls my opinion is, if you pose naked in sexual positions with or without a partner, making every attempt to make guys get an erection, you do porn -- it might be softcore, but it is still porn. If it is something you will not dare show your 10-year old brother or cause your father to have a heart attack, it is porn. I don't know. Maybe it is something they verbalize to make themselves feel better.

LOS DIABLOS
Well, duh on this one. Here is a list of people I will never deal with again. I am posting the dirty deeds, so that other people can proceed with caution. And yes, I have documented proof of every single thing I say...wanna sue me? Bring it on, bitch!
• John L: Amateur pornographer for the Bondage Inn (later to be found fictitious) who hired me to do stills and video, but since his camera needed a new battery, we ran through the whole day of shooting video of me peeing on him, whipping his lily white ass, and doing a tape recording of a humiliation script he wrote out "to play on the screen of his underground BDSM club"..riiight. He said he needed stills and me to come back the next day to shoot them. We agreed that he pay me only $150 as a good faith payment, with full payment paid the next day. I came back the next day and waited for HOURS. He never returned any calls to his cell phone (808...yes, I have both your home and cell# and out of respect for his young daughter I will not post his real information). He claims to have never received any messages, even though both my agent and I spoke with him later that month. On that day I spoke with him, he offered no apology, no compensation, and told me he got everything he needed. Fetish models: He is a freak, a liar and a cheat. I am so glad I saved all the email and bought that handset receiver recording device. It may not be permissible in court, but at least I have proof. He just sent me a check for $200 for both me and my agent's fees, which combined with the "deposit" does not even cover my day rate, in exchange for me to take his name off my booking calendar because his daughter might see it if she googled his name. I will take his name off for her sake, but I warn any models to take any fetish work from anyone from Hawaii to contact me and I will give full disclosure of hs information as a referral. I am using their professional names and have not posted their real information out of courtesy - even though their actions do not warrant such extensions.
• Steve Williams: My former webmaster. Alias of the partner of MSBill and MSHost. Owns 2000charge.com, mach5.net, and over 250 other subscription websites. He hosts other people's subscription sites and then turns around sells/markets to their members' e-mail addresses and even sells the e-mail addresses at 50-cents a pop. Hi-jacked my domain and would not give it back. This guy even has a bunch of fake Id's & SSN's to run his businesses, including reselling cars that were stripped down in LA. I thought I knew who this guy was, but I guess not.
• Shai Lee: Porn chick from Colorado who we tried to help. She borrowed $1000 to come to LA. I got her work in the business (with no referral fees; I am not a pimp) so that she could repay the loan. She skipped town without paying back and then found out she wrote and cashed (in Colorado) a $1800 check from my friend's bank account with my girl friend's ID she stole from where she was being put up. The only peep we heard from her is an e-mail that her Californian boyfriend who just got released from Singsing is now in Colorado with her and will kill anyone who has filmed her and that for our personal safety, do not try to contact her anymore. My friends have filed police reports and criminal charges are being brought up against her for theft of property, check fraud, & identity theft. Talk about biting the hand that feeds you. This girl is the same one who keeps talking bad about how Lucy Lee is a crazy, thuggish skank. For the record, Lucy is a wild party-girl, but she is no thief and definitely not a skank.
• Rick Jenkins: Partner who left me with all the bills from Hollywood Asians and the Geishahouse. Emptied bank accounts and left the country. I had a whole lot of shit to deal with. I managed to make sure all the models were paid in full, but I almost filed bankruptcy and have a really awful credit rating now.
• Ashley Thom (AKA Claudia, Christy Lee, Bebe Girl): Contacted me when I was the talent coodrinator for HollywoodAsians and the Geishahouse. She said she wanted to be bigger and better than Francine Dee, because her xbf was obsessed with her, like who isn't right? She wanted DD's so we worked out a contract where she worked for us for 1 year and then we would pay for her jumblies. After 3 months, she manipulated my partner Rick Jenkins into getting her boobs early (I can only speculate how), without my knowledge. Customers who watched the voyeur cams reported that she stole clothes and jewelry from Miko Lee, me, and other models, though she never admitted to this. She then did everything possible to get out her contract, including but limited to telling everyone I hit her, Rick sexually harassed her, telling the secret location of the Geishahouse to fans, lying to get chatroom guys to send her money, and pitting girls within the house against each other.We had a huge house meeting where everyone cleared up the stories and found she lied to and manipulated everyone. I bought her a one-way ticket back to Georgia and told her I never wanted to see her again. I hope she outgrows this self-serving behavior, because this industry is small. We had to try to find a new voyeur house, because of stalkers. We never got around to it, because Rick split with all the money. Note to Francine: Dude, she has some strange obsession with you...like some freaky Single White Female shit. Be careful; duuuude...she might come at you with a platform stiletto.

• Teresa Cervantes: Addicted to plastic surgery, so I do not know who or what she looks like now. Used to own Models of Exotica and TC Models. She sold the actual "interview tapes" of girls (using their real bio info) responding to her ads & misrepresented herself as a scout for Playboy. Bounced $4000 worth of checks to me; never made good. Borrowed thousands of dollars of production equipment from different people and told people she gave it to me when she skipped town. I was totally harassed. If I see her again, I am going to fucken break her new "Denise Richards" nose.
• Chase Sullivan: Owns and has been collecting content for sfasians.com. Owes several of my model friends hundreds upon hundreds of dollars.
• Jade Marcela: Stole $400 in cash and a drivers license out of my wallet while we were working on the same set. She rented a FUCKEN CAR and didn't return it, so the rental car place pressed charges for GRAND THEFT AUTO. Man, that sucked. I got fingerprinted at the police station and everything. Royally sucked. She has just e-mailed me and told me that she did not do it. I told her I saw her, Don Fernando, and another female on the security video tape from the rental car place. I hired a PI who found all whole bunch of proof she used my ID at the rental place and the hotel, listing the same stolen car on the hotel registery. She says she didn't steal any money, even though it was in the same wallet as my ID. Some people are in this industry because they are desperate for quick money. It is possible someone else on set took the money, in all fairness, but she most definitely take my ID and has still never apologized for all the trouble she got me in.
• Alec Metro: Bounced a $600 check for a girl-girl scene and never paid it. Never returned any calls, answered his door, nor made any attempt to pay me. Owes several performers thousands of dollars.
• Laurel Lanquin: Some chick I went to high school with who was cool to my face and turns around and sells bootlegged copies of the worst girl-girl videos of me in existence in her parent's video store and the swap meet. I told her I will replace them with as many of the good ones as she wants, but she has not replied to any of my e-mails or my phone calls. Not only is she violating copyright laws, but she must be circulating bad product out of malice, because what fucking business owner would turn down free merchandise? Must be just a plain, old, run-of-the-mill bitch, I guess.
• Ray Shannon: Ex and wannabe gigilo. Likes to talk about about how he was almost was on the Jerry Springer show, like his gigilo hero, Joe Cervantes. Years after the divorce, he still threatens violence and attempts to extort money from me. Had all his criminal records exsponged and keeps trying to get into law enforcement for the "power". Mentions his branch of service and rank for everything - even his outgoing voicemail message, even though he had been out for a very long time. Likes to wear his dress blues with medals (even those he did not earn) when picking people up at the airport and company Christmas parties and has adopted other people's war stories as his own, so people can be impressed. Disgusting. His MO: finds girls and gives them a sob story about how his ex is a slut and broke his heart, make them feel confident enough to do adult work, lives off them, and continues to date on the side so that he can make an easy transition. Can keep up the nice persona for about 1 year. What was I thinking - oh, wait. I wasn't; he was good in bed. Advice to his new chick, Heather: 99.9% chance he is cheating you. Give him no access to your money and RUN. You have been warned. What he did to me, he's doing to you. He probably weaseled his way into your checking account by now. Stop sending me e-mail, crying what an asshole he is. You know he was laughing with his friends about spending all of your 10K settlement. Hello, McFly?! I caught you in my house with him while we were still married and I was pregnant and yet you continued to see him anyway. Zero sympathy from me, babe. Stop being so naive. Although you were a minor when he started banging you, you are not a baby anymore. Save the tears for the joy once he is gone.

MAINSTREAM HYPOCRITES
Considering I have been in the modeling business since I was 9 years old, but only 2 years (as an adult) working mainstream, this is a very short list. I must admit that compared to mainstream directors, I have never had to have kiss anyone's ass or have sex with anyone in the adult video business in order to get work. I know lots of mainstream actors/actresses who felt compelled to have sex for roles they still did not get and yet they look down on adult workers. Let's not forget about all the movies and documentaries they do ABOUT porn (most of which are stupid). So it is okay to make money off off porn as long as you denounce it. Lots of A-B-C-List actors go to porn parties, but they do silly things like wear sunglasses at night so no one can link them to "the dark side". It is sad that mainstream folks are so afraid to be seen with us. Image is everything in Hollywood and we don't have a fake image to protect, so we are more free to be ourselves. I wish more actors would be themselves; there is so much pressure to be something they are not. I was approached to "pretend" to be a gay actor's (B-List) girlfriend for a sizable fee, until I told them I did porn. I figured some Asiaphile in the media might recognize me so I better let them know. They freaked out and told me to rip up their business cards and never call them again. Lucky for them I signed a non-disclosure or else I would be blabbing their names here. LOL. Come on, a guy dating a porn chick? His female fans would assume he was hung like a horse and his male fans would be jealous. Then there was the dumb asshole who claimed to be a writer for Law and Order (his name or the person he is impersonating has been credited on the show) was trying to get me to introduce him to all the Asian adult models I know for a "sexy Coca Cola commercial". He tried to meet all of us for coffee, dinner, etc. I have done commercial work before and thought this behavior was strange so I checked up on him; Coca Cola said he was never authorized to scout. Freak. Then there was the pacemaker'd radio exec who invites me to to music awards shows and concerts, but tell me to meet him 5 hours earlier, so that we can "test his internal defibrillator". He tells me he is very wealthy, well-connected and can introduce me to all kinds of people looking for music video girls. Blah-blah red carpet...blah-blah celebrities..blah-blah backstage passes..Okay, perhaps he did not get the memo: porn stars get invited to rock events all the time. He is nuts to think I would have sex with him in exchange for admission into a music event. The people I have come across make it seem like you have to sleep your way to stardom. I am not interested in being famous on either side of the Hills; I want to make my money and move on. I firmly believe you either got "IT" or you don't. People wonder why I distrust mainstream so much. Whether or not they know you do adult work, they are continually trying to get into your pants and always try to work the angle, "Do something you can be proud of". So listen here, buckos: I am proud of my sexuality. Where is the pride in having sex for only a chance to audition? They talk about porn as degrading; selling yourself out for nothing is degrading on so many more levels. Where is the pride in having sex with someone who is (1) untested, (2) usually married/has a girlfriend who would have a problem with it, (3) physically repulsive/small penis, (4) a manipulative person trying to exploit girls' desire for success? If anyone is going to exploit my body, it is going to be me. If I am going to fuck for work, I am going to fuck for work.